10 kinds of loneliness,
10 kinds of sadness,
10 kinds of misery,
10 kinds of heartbreak, and
10 kinds of depression.
i feel so lost without you Best,
i miss you like crazy...
Thursday, December 06, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
what the world needs
as of October 2007, there are over 6,999,999,999 people in this planet.
six billion people.
six billion souls.
and sometimes, all you need is one…
God be with you always Mahal ko. lagi ka mag-iingat.
six billion people.
six billion souls.
and sometimes, all you need is one…
God be with you always Mahal ko. lagi ka mag-iingat.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
thoughts i have right now
Why is Havaianas so expensive, for sandals that is basically beach wear?
I would never see myself cashing out thousands of pesos for a mere beach wear. I am sorry if somebody will be offended, but I don't see the logic of putting your hard-earned money to have beach slippers that is basically the same as what you will buy in Marikina or other department stores at half or one-third of the price. Call me a scrooge or a miser, but all of these brands are mere labels. You are not buying THE product, but the LABEL of the product. It's just status symbols, like you will be associated with so and so star or designer when you buy the bag, or shoes or what-have-yous. Maybe it's just differences in priorities, I guess. Or maybe I am stereotypically a kuripot, hahaha!!!
PS:
Raine, thank you for letting me borrow your Havaianas. It’s one hell of a relief to my poor, aching feet right now, hehe. But sorry, it wont still make me buy one. Hahaha.
I would never see myself cashing out thousands of pesos for a mere beach wear. I am sorry if somebody will be offended, but I don't see the logic of putting your hard-earned money to have beach slippers that is basically the same as what you will buy in Marikina or other department stores at half or one-third of the price. Call me a scrooge or a miser, but all of these brands are mere labels. You are not buying THE product, but the LABEL of the product. It's just status symbols, like you will be associated with so and so star or designer when you buy the bag, or shoes or what-have-yous. Maybe it's just differences in priorities, I guess. Or maybe I am stereotypically a kuripot, hahaha!!!
PS:
Raine, thank you for letting me borrow your Havaianas. It’s one hell of a relief to my poor, aching feet right now, hehe. But sorry, it wont still make me buy one. Hahaha.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
bertdey
25 years had passed since my cry was heard by the world
as each stage of my life evolved, it seems that the tears had been my comrade in my journey
it was not realized at that time yet how i appreciate those salty drops during the recent years
i haven't the faintest idea how my life will be though i created dreams and built sandcastles
the unfolding was exhilirating yet at times painfully excruciating
seasons passed. . . moments elapsed. . .
there were oh-so-happy times . . . challenging occassions came next . . .
beyond all these were wisdom learned . . .
now, i have years ahead to anticipate . . . years to be grateful of . . . years of learning and fun-filled epoch to be giddy about . .
as each stage of my life evolved, it seems that the tears had been my comrade in my journey
it was not realized at that time yet how i appreciate those salty drops during the recent years
i haven't the faintest idea how my life will be though i created dreams and built sandcastles
the unfolding was exhilirating yet at times painfully excruciating
seasons passed. . . moments elapsed. . .
there were oh-so-happy times . . . challenging occassions came next . . .
beyond all these were wisdom learned . . .
now, i have years ahead to anticipate . . . years to be grateful of . . . years of learning and fun-filled epoch to be giddy about . .
happy birthday to me!!!
Friday, November 02, 2007
love from a star
You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.
Yvaine to Tristan
Stardust 2007
Yvaine to Tristan
Stardust 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
after insanity comes rationalization
"They say the answers we seek are almost always right there in front of us. And it's all just a matter of time and the proper perspective. Well, I've been looking at things from different angles, various vantage points. With any luck then, things will start falling into places any time now."
Love is the Answer
"A sacrifice to be real must cost, must hurt, must empty ourselves..." - Mother Teresa
Love is a sacrifice.
Love will save this world. But if love is all it takes, then why is it so hard?
Once love is looked at in its truest sense, one can see how and why it should hurt so much. Love is a sacrifice. loving someone who loves you back is easy. But loving someone who isn't lovable is the true test.
There are many people in my life who haven't loved me back the way that i desired them to. friends. People who i considered close. Leaders I looked up to. People I invested my heart in. and to now see that there exists a lack of love between us... is really hard for me to understand.
To feel unloved is just something no one wants to feel. But the worst thing one can do in response to that is to stop loving back. To give up on them is the easier thing to do. But to love despite all odds allows you to soar to the highest of places.
It all comes back to sacrifice. a sacrifice of self is true love.
To love I must...
* Sacrifice my pride and my ego even if it means humiliation by the world's standards or losing some friends.
* Sacrifice "winning" the argument because peace should be my bigger desire.
* Sacrifice having the last word because speaking, writing, blogging, spreading negativity will only add disdain and coldness to my heart.
* Sacrifice my image (vanity) for the sake of Christ's image to be seen in me.
* Sacrifice being with someone if they do not bring me to Christ. (yes, this means breaking up with your boy/girlfriend. It will hurt but maybe it's your needed sacrifice.)
* Sacrifice being popular if it compromises what I stand for inside.
* Sacrifice all I have so others may receive even part.
* Sacrifice inconveniences and hardships just to know it is a way for me to be shaped and molded into a stronger person.
* Sacrifice complaining because I really have nothing to complain about.
* Sacrifice more because I have too much and there's more to be given!
Jesus loved us who rejected Him, who denounced and tortured Him. He loved us so much that even as we forgot Him, He remembered us. Through every second of His suffering, He offered us a love greater than all the whole world's love combined. His love is sacrifice.
So next time you love, if it hurts a little, make sure it only causes you to love harder. Shout "Thank you, Jesus!" when it hurts. For it is through that hurt that Jesus is allowing you to have a taste of what He lived when He loved, and thus... He is making you more like Him. To empty yourself, for love is the type of selflessness that will heal this world. It is through our sacrifice of self that all in this world may experience true love.
"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." ~Mother Teresa
Love is a sacrifice.
Love will save this world. But if love is all it takes, then why is it so hard?
Once love is looked at in its truest sense, one can see how and why it should hurt so much. Love is a sacrifice. loving someone who loves you back is easy. But loving someone who isn't lovable is the true test.
There are many people in my life who haven't loved me back the way that i desired them to. friends. People who i considered close. Leaders I looked up to. People I invested my heart in. and to now see that there exists a lack of love between us... is really hard for me to understand.
To feel unloved is just something no one wants to feel. But the worst thing one can do in response to that is to stop loving back. To give up on them is the easier thing to do. But to love despite all odds allows you to soar to the highest of places.
It all comes back to sacrifice. a sacrifice of self is true love.
To love I must...
* Sacrifice my pride and my ego even if it means humiliation by the world's standards or losing some friends.
* Sacrifice "winning" the argument because peace should be my bigger desire.
* Sacrifice having the last word because speaking, writing, blogging, spreading negativity will only add disdain and coldness to my heart.
* Sacrifice my image (vanity) for the sake of Christ's image to be seen in me.
* Sacrifice being with someone if they do not bring me to Christ. (yes, this means breaking up with your boy/girlfriend. It will hurt but maybe it's your needed sacrifice.)
* Sacrifice being popular if it compromises what I stand for inside.
* Sacrifice all I have so others may receive even part.
* Sacrifice inconveniences and hardships just to know it is a way for me to be shaped and molded into a stronger person.
* Sacrifice complaining because I really have nothing to complain about.
* Sacrifice more because I have too much and there's more to be given!
Jesus loved us who rejected Him, who denounced and tortured Him. He loved us so much that even as we forgot Him, He remembered us. Through every second of His suffering, He offered us a love greater than all the whole world's love combined. His love is sacrifice.
So next time you love, if it hurts a little, make sure it only causes you to love harder. Shout "Thank you, Jesus!" when it hurts. For it is through that hurt that Jesus is allowing you to have a taste of what He lived when He loved, and thus... He is making you more like Him. To empty yourself, for love is the type of selflessness that will heal this world. It is through our sacrifice of self that all in this world may experience true love.
"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." ~Mother Teresa
"Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things." -- Matthew 6:34
We can endure anything if we bear in mind that God is always with us -- in every action, word or decision. Isn't it comforting to know that we are never alone?
Sometimes, when we experience spiritual dryness, God is actually at work. In weakness, we are made strong, as the Bible says. Sometimes we also have mood swings that even when others try to uplift us, we couldn't help but worry. I have discovered an effective approach... when we feel like we're beginning to worry about things, let's start counting our blessings instead... with that, we tend to praise Him more. We never know, we've already forgotten about our own worries... we even smile... and we become more beautiful in God's eyes. Or we could think of others' problems instead, until we realize how lucky we are, making our problems seem insignificant.
There are also people around us who pull us down, judging us based on their own emotions or opinions. And we are affected sometimes, epecially when these people matter to us. Most of us dread judgement. But shouldn't we fear God's judgement above everything else? I guess judgement is human in nature. But it's all a matter of perspective, how we take them. Do we accept them as constructive criticism or not? Sometimes, other people simply put us down so they could feel good about themselves, and it's sad. Maybe they're here to help us widen our understanding, and lengthen our patience. All geared towards personal growth... Only God knows what truly is in our hearts, anyway.
Another one is the fear of attachment/detachment. We tend to be attached/detached to/from different worldly things, including our fellow men. Honestly, I still couldn't grasp the whole concept of detachment, unless maybe I experience it completely. But I guess, when we remind ourselves that everything in this world is temporary, and we know that we have done everything the best we could to enjoy and express our care and love for someone at a time given to us, we won't have any regrets. That's why we have memories... they teach us how to appreciate our blessings more.
I guess the whole point here is to stop worrying. "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things." -- Matthew 6:34. May we learn to face our fears. As wise men always say, no guts no glory. Maybe it's better to fall, learn and get up again, than to realize we haven't tried at all. So seize the day! Live by the moment! Enjoy God's blessings, for He has showered us with so much.
Pray.
Love!
Let's all focus on Him... and remember that He is always here.
Sometimes, when we experience spiritual dryness, God is actually at work. In weakness, we are made strong, as the Bible says. Sometimes we also have mood swings that even when others try to uplift us, we couldn't help but worry. I have discovered an effective approach... when we feel like we're beginning to worry about things, let's start counting our blessings instead... with that, we tend to praise Him more. We never know, we've already forgotten about our own worries... we even smile... and we become more beautiful in God's eyes. Or we could think of others' problems instead, until we realize how lucky we are, making our problems seem insignificant.
There are also people around us who pull us down, judging us based on their own emotions or opinions. And we are affected sometimes, epecially when these people matter to us. Most of us dread judgement. But shouldn't we fear God's judgement above everything else? I guess judgement is human in nature. But it's all a matter of perspective, how we take them. Do we accept them as constructive criticism or not? Sometimes, other people simply put us down so they could feel good about themselves, and it's sad. Maybe they're here to help us widen our understanding, and lengthen our patience. All geared towards personal growth... Only God knows what truly is in our hearts, anyway.
Another one is the fear of attachment/detachment. We tend to be attached/detached to/from different worldly things, including our fellow men. Honestly, I still couldn't grasp the whole concept of detachment, unless maybe I experience it completely. But I guess, when we remind ourselves that everything in this world is temporary, and we know that we have done everything the best we could to enjoy and express our care and love for someone at a time given to us, we won't have any regrets. That's why we have memories... they teach us how to appreciate our blessings more.
I guess the whole point here is to stop worrying. "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things." -- Matthew 6:34. May we learn to face our fears. As wise men always say, no guts no glory. Maybe it's better to fall, learn and get up again, than to realize we haven't tried at all. So seize the day! Live by the moment! Enjoy God's blessings, for He has showered us with so much.
Pray.
Love!
Let's all focus on Him... and remember that He is always here.
Monday, October 15, 2007
inday and dodong
Inday: The statute restricts me to love you but you have the provocations. The way you smile is the proximate cause why I love you. We have some rules to think of. We have no vested rights to love each other because the upper household dismissed my petition!
Dodong: Perhaps you are mistaken, what you seem to contrive as any affections for you are somewhat half-hearted. I was merely attempting to expand my network of interests by involving you in my daily recreation. Heretofor, you can expect an end to any verbal articulation from myself.
Me dumaan na mamang basurero, at narinig ang usapan ni Inday at Dodong.
Basurero (sabi ke Inday): Be careful in letting go of the things you thought are just nothing because maybe someday you'll realize that the one you gave away is the very thing you've been wishing for to stay.
To my dodong, you know who you are =), i have already figured out what i want from life, that is to be by your side for as long as you want me, to heck with the rules. mwah!
Dodong: Perhaps you are mistaken, what you seem to contrive as any affections for you are somewhat half-hearted. I was merely attempting to expand my network of interests by involving you in my daily recreation. Heretofor, you can expect an end to any verbal articulation from myself.
Me dumaan na mamang basurero, at narinig ang usapan ni Inday at Dodong.
Basurero (sabi ke Inday): Be careful in letting go of the things you thought are just nothing because maybe someday you'll realize that the one you gave away is the very thing you've been wishing for to stay.
To my dodong, you know who you are =), i have already figured out what i want from life, that is to be by your side for as long as you want me, to heck with the rules. mwah!
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
trust
as i was reading Genesis 18, where the stories of Abraham, his gift from God and his plea for Sodom are told, i reflected on prayers.
in this chapter, it shows how faithful and merciful our God is, considering bargains and proving everything is possible if we just trust in Him. He knows our deepest desires, and He will grant it in His own will, which is always the best.
when we say prayer, we usually think of requests. is this all there is when we talk to God? for me, praying is an intimate communication with Him, glorifying His name, thanking Him for all the countless blessings day by day, asking Him to guide me in everything i do so that i may live according to His will. when i look back on requests i made before, some of those turned out far from what i expected, and they all worked out for the best.
that's why i strongly disagree with the term "unanswered prayers". when God says "no", didn't He answer? God always answers. He listens and feels every joy and pain. it just happened that the answer was "no", or maybe "wait", but still, He listened. maybe we need to assess our requests. is it according to our will, or His? sometimes even that we can't figure out. maybe praying for discernment is a much better request.
there are times when we are still plagued by worries, fear and impatience, and we couldn't help but ask, or even blame, Him for things happening to us. but somewhere in the long train of thoughts, He answers, so profoundly, that we are left speechless. and we feel humbled. we feel someone truly listens, without judgement, rejection or abandonment. and we are loved.
in this chapter, it shows how faithful and merciful our God is, considering bargains and proving everything is possible if we just trust in Him. He knows our deepest desires, and He will grant it in His own will, which is always the best.
when we say prayer, we usually think of requests. is this all there is when we talk to God? for me, praying is an intimate communication with Him, glorifying His name, thanking Him for all the countless blessings day by day, asking Him to guide me in everything i do so that i may live according to His will. when i look back on requests i made before, some of those turned out far from what i expected, and they all worked out for the best.
that's why i strongly disagree with the term "unanswered prayers". when God says "no", didn't He answer? God always answers. He listens and feels every joy and pain. it just happened that the answer was "no", or maybe "wait", but still, He listened. maybe we need to assess our requests. is it according to our will, or His? sometimes even that we can't figure out. maybe praying for discernment is a much better request.
there are times when we are still plagued by worries, fear and impatience, and we couldn't help but ask, or even blame, Him for things happening to us. but somewhere in the long train of thoughts, He answers, so profoundly, that we are left speechless. and we feel humbled. we feel someone truly listens, without judgement, rejection or abandonment. and we are loved.
perfect love
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone
To have a deep soul relationship with another
Be loved thoroughly, and exclusively.
But God, to a Christian, says:
I want you to be satisfied, fulfilled, and content
With being loved by Me alone
With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me
With having an intensely personal and unique relationship
With Me alone.
Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,
Will you be capable of the best human relationship
That I have planned for you.
I want you to be united with another after you are united with Me
Exclusive of anyone or anything else,
Exclusive of any other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,
And allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing
One that you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the best
Please allow Me to bring it to you.
You just keep watching Me, trusting Me
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am.
Keep listening and learning the things I tell you.
You just wait.
That's all.
Don't be anxious.
Don't worry.
Don't look around at the things
Others have gotten or that I've given them.
Don't look at the things you think you want.
You just keep looking off and up to Me,
Or you'll miss what I want to show you.
And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love
Far more wonderful than any you would dream of.
You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready,
(I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time),
Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I prepared for you,
You won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me.
And this is the perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love.
I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me,
To enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love
That I offer you with Myself.
Know that I love you utterly.
I am God.
Believe and be satisfied.
Forwarded by a friend. Thanks!
To have a deep soul relationship with another
Be loved thoroughly, and exclusively.
But God, to a Christian, says:
I want you to be satisfied, fulfilled, and content
With being loved by Me alone
With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me
With having an intensely personal and unique relationship
With Me alone.
Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,
Will you be capable of the best human relationship
That I have planned for you.
I want you to be united with another after you are united with Me
Exclusive of anyone or anything else,
Exclusive of any other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,
And allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing
One that you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the best
Please allow Me to bring it to you.
You just keep watching Me, trusting Me
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am.
Keep listening and learning the things I tell you.
You just wait.
That's all.
Don't be anxious.
Don't worry.
Don't look around at the things
Others have gotten or that I've given them.
Don't look at the things you think you want.
You just keep looking off and up to Me,
Or you'll miss what I want to show you.
And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love
Far more wonderful than any you would dream of.
You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready,
(I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time),
Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I prepared for you,
You won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me.
And this is the perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love.
I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me,
To enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love
That I offer you with Myself.
Know that I love you utterly.
I am God.
Believe and be satisfied.
Forwarded by a friend. Thanks!
love
1 Corinthians 13
1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Thursday, October 04, 2007
a reflection
Lord, thank you for this wonderful day, for giving me a chance to make up for my sins and to be enlightened by Your grace. I am a sinner who is not worthy of You, but still You shower me with Your blessings. You have made me see happiness even in the smallest things. For this, I am grateful.
Thank you for these words that have just recently opened my heart....
Love for Enemies (Matthew 5)
43"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Lord, I am the enemy. Please forgive me for I have hurt special people in so many ways. Friendship has taught me many things that I realized how much I have really lost. I had let anger, pride and hate take over me. I did not listen to what You were telling my heart to do. For this Lord, I suffer. And I deserve it. I ask that I may be forgiven. It does not matter how long, for I am still here.
Lead us not into temptation -- away from anger, pride, hate, jealousy and vengeance. I lift up everything to you, Lord. May Your will be done.
Thank you for these words that have just recently opened my heart....
Love for Enemies (Matthew 5)
43"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Lord, I am the enemy. Please forgive me for I have hurt special people in so many ways. Friendship has taught me many things that I realized how much I have really lost. I had let anger, pride and hate take over me. I did not listen to what You were telling my heart to do. For this Lord, I suffer. And I deserve it. I ask that I may be forgiven. It does not matter how long, for I am still here.
Lead us not into temptation -- away from anger, pride, hate, jealousy and vengeance. I lift up everything to you, Lord. May Your will be done.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
i have to write this, gahuot na jud ako dughan, heaven help me naglisod na ko ginhawa
ngano complicated man au ang gugma? why do we have to be hurt? im so tired of being sad and afraid and insecure...
its so hard to understand, di ko na alam papano intindihin eh.
why do i have to share my lover's attention, time and love with another woman, not just any other woman but his Ex of seven years.
until when can i carry on competing for his attention,
until when can i stand the feeling of jealousy and insecurity,
the pain is just too much to bear.
sakit na kaayo sa dughan, i dont know what to do.
maybe this is karma, then i really deserve this.
its so hard to understand, di ko na alam papano intindihin eh.
why do i have to share my lover's attention, time and love with another woman, not just any other woman but his Ex of seven years.
until when can i carry on competing for his attention,
until when can i stand the feeling of jealousy and insecurity,
the pain is just too much to bear.
sakit na kaayo sa dughan, i dont know what to do.
maybe this is karma, then i really deserve this.
optimus prime's words of wisdom
im so tired of being sad and melancholic. i miss my old vigilant and opinionated self and not to mention my pessimism, oh well. enough of that sad posts okay!
for the second time, i watched the transformers with star during the weekend and just when i thought that all hope is gone and that no one believes that there is still goodness left in men, here comes optimus prime in transformers 2007.
Ironhide: Why are we fighting to save the humans? They're a primitive, violent race.
Optimus Prime: Were we so different? They're a young species. They have much to learn. But I've seen goodness in them. Freedom is the right of all sentient beings.
Megatron: Humans don't deserve to live!
Optimus Prime: They deserve to choose for themselves!
Optimus Prime: ... and fate has yielded its reward: a new world to call home. We live among its people now, hiding in plain sight, but watching over them in secret, waiting, protecting. I have witnessed their capacity for courage, and though we are worlds apart, like us, there's more to them than meets the eye.
with these words, please allow me to regard optimus prime as an allegory of the Supreme Being, Who never loses hope in His greatest creation, man. cliche as it may seem, if He still believes in us, then probably we can still really make this world a better place.
are you ready to heed the call to prove our worth? then, like the autobots, roll out!
for the second time, i watched the transformers with star during the weekend and just when i thought that all hope is gone and that no one believes that there is still goodness left in men, here comes optimus prime in transformers 2007.
Ironhide: Why are we fighting to save the humans? They're a primitive, violent race.
Optimus Prime: Were we so different? They're a young species. They have much to learn. But I've seen goodness in them. Freedom is the right of all sentient beings.
Megatron: Humans don't deserve to live!
Optimus Prime: They deserve to choose for themselves!
Optimus Prime: ... and fate has yielded its reward: a new world to call home. We live among its people now, hiding in plain sight, but watching over them in secret, waiting, protecting. I have witnessed their capacity for courage, and though we are worlds apart, like us, there's more to them than meets the eye.
with these words, please allow me to regard optimus prime as an allegory of the Supreme Being, Who never loses hope in His greatest creation, man. cliche as it may seem, if He still believes in us, then probably we can still really make this world a better place.
are you ready to heed the call to prove our worth? then, like the autobots, roll out!
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
mga tanong, takot at lungkot
may mga tanong sa mundo na kahit paulit-ulit mong hanapan ng sagot, mananatili lang ganun, tanong. basta walang paliwanag, maloka ka kakaisip.
parang mga taong pilit mong inuunawa, pero di mo lang talaga maintindihan o ayaw kasi talaga magpaintindi syo.
parang yung lungkot na bigla na lang babalot sa puso mo ng walang kada-kadahilan, hanggang kainin nito ang buo mong pagkatao.
parang mga bagay na kahit di mo nakikita o nahahawakan, alam mong nandyan yun. lingering in the air, ika nga. pero di mo naman talaga ma-pinpoint kung ano o baka natatakot ka lang din kasi na sa pagbibigay mo dito ng pangalan, mabubuhay at magiging totoo na ito.
parang masamang panaginip na kahit incoherent ang pag-iisa-isa mo sa detalye, damang-dama mo pa rin yung takot o lungkot.
parang mga multo sa buhay mo na kahit ilang ulit na pinaghandaan ng utak at damdamin mo, di ka pa rin talaga handa kapag dumating at nagkaka-anyo. mapapaupo ka na lang sa isang sulok, walang kalaban-laban at puno ng walang katapusang tanong, takot at lungkot.
parang mga taong pilit mong inuunawa, pero di mo lang talaga maintindihan o ayaw kasi talaga magpaintindi syo.
parang yung lungkot na bigla na lang babalot sa puso mo ng walang kada-kadahilan, hanggang kainin nito ang buo mong pagkatao.
parang mga bagay na kahit di mo nakikita o nahahawakan, alam mong nandyan yun. lingering in the air, ika nga. pero di mo naman talaga ma-pinpoint kung ano o baka natatakot ka lang din kasi na sa pagbibigay mo dito ng pangalan, mabubuhay at magiging totoo na ito.
parang masamang panaginip na kahit incoherent ang pag-iisa-isa mo sa detalye, damang-dama mo pa rin yung takot o lungkot.
parang mga multo sa buhay mo na kahit ilang ulit na pinaghandaan ng utak at damdamin mo, di ka pa rin talaga handa kapag dumating at nagkaka-anyo. mapapaupo ka na lang sa isang sulok, walang kalaban-laban at puno ng walang katapusang tanong, takot at lungkot.
Monday, October 01, 2007
Friday, September 28, 2007
Monday, September 24, 2007
what is our greatest fear?
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
We were born to make manifest
the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us;
it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.
--- Marianne Williamson in "Return to Love"
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
We were born to make manifest
the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us;
it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.
--- Marianne Williamson in "Return to Love"
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
love in the afternoon
It's the most uncanny thing. How you can pause in the middle of an afternoon, buried deep in work, and think out of the blue, I'm so in love with my bestfriend.
Because I am in love. And I am excited and giddy with the thought that I’m going to see him after work.
Because I am in love. And I am excited and giddy with the thought that I’m going to see him after work.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
a love story
i watched the movie with J and enjoyed it very much. not because ang gwapo ni Aga, ang galing ni Maricel, sexy ni Angelica and ganda ng story but because kulit ng kasama ko – insist ng insist na kamukha nya si Aga, cge na pagbigyan na natin, walang kokontra =)
the movie is a mistress story -- what drives a man to look for someone else even if he already has everything? i guess it has always been a man's nature to seek a greener pasture in someone else's land and to want the best of both worlds. and what makes the other woman agree to the arrangement? i guess its because of LOVE, we all just want to love and be loved, whatever the cost may be.
Maricel, the other woman who Aga met after getting married to Angelica, is Aga’s true love. tipong love of epic proportions, intensity 10 earthquake generating love. si Angelica naman, two decades younger, yung totoong wife. happy nung start, naging rocky dahil career girl sya, lalong naging rocky dahil pumasok si Maricel, tapos nabuntis si Angelica, and after ng much hand-wringing (”pagod na pagod na ako mag-makaawa”) she got her happy ending.
so, eto, ang matagal ko nang gustong itanong:
kung isa lang pwede kong piliin, mas gusto ko ba ng deep and true na mala-signal number 10 ang intensity love pero at the end of the day hindi mapapasaakin. kumbaga, asa ka pa!!?
o mas gusto ko ba ng happy-ever-after with constancy and security and five-ten-fifteen year wedding anniversaries, pero lagi kang afraid kasi hindi ikaw ang once-in-a-lifetime love?
true love or happy endings?
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my own reflections:
true love, no questions asked. point is, meron bang truly happy ending if you’re not with your one true love? seems to me like i’ll forever be wondering, pining, hoping for a second chance, with my once-in-a-lifetime, and this will prevent me from completely accepting the relationship i’m in, and from being absolutely happy and content… there may be times when i could say, okay na to, masaya na rin ako, but i just know that there are moments when, in the midst of seeming perfection — with my current flame and our kids etc., — i’ll remember HIM, and then everything won’t be so perfect anymore…
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i’ve always been a hopeless romantic and a lunatic when it comes to loving. i don’t have enough experience on the matter but i strongly believe that if you’re with your one true love, happy endings follow. its automatic and no one can prevent it.
someday, when i get married, i pray that i will never have to share my husband's attention and love with another woman (or women!). i do not think i can carry on competing for attention everyday so that i will always be one step ahead of the other. i do not think i can stand feeling jealousy everyday and the pain of inadequacy - that i am not enough to make a person happy.
that’s why it is very important to be with somebody who loves you truly.
hay, i miss my bestfriend, thank you for all the love and attention.
the movie is a mistress story -- what drives a man to look for someone else even if he already has everything? i guess it has always been a man's nature to seek a greener pasture in someone else's land and to want the best of both worlds. and what makes the other woman agree to the arrangement? i guess its because of LOVE, we all just want to love and be loved, whatever the cost may be.
Maricel, the other woman who Aga met after getting married to Angelica, is Aga’s true love. tipong love of epic proportions, intensity 10 earthquake generating love. si Angelica naman, two decades younger, yung totoong wife. happy nung start, naging rocky dahil career girl sya, lalong naging rocky dahil pumasok si Maricel, tapos nabuntis si Angelica, and after ng much hand-wringing (”pagod na pagod na ako mag-makaawa”) she got her happy ending.
so, eto, ang matagal ko nang gustong itanong:
kung isa lang pwede kong piliin, mas gusto ko ba ng deep and true na mala-signal number 10 ang intensity love pero at the end of the day hindi mapapasaakin. kumbaga, asa ka pa!!?
o mas gusto ko ba ng happy-ever-after with constancy and security and five-ten-fifteen year wedding anniversaries, pero lagi kang afraid kasi hindi ikaw ang once-in-a-lifetime love?
true love or happy endings?
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my own reflections:
true love, no questions asked. point is, meron bang truly happy ending if you’re not with your one true love? seems to me like i’ll forever be wondering, pining, hoping for a second chance, with my once-in-a-lifetime, and this will prevent me from completely accepting the relationship i’m in, and from being absolutely happy and content… there may be times when i could say, okay na to, masaya na rin ako, but i just know that there are moments when, in the midst of seeming perfection — with my current flame and our kids etc., — i’ll remember HIM, and then everything won’t be so perfect anymore…
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i’ve always been a hopeless romantic and a lunatic when it comes to loving. i don’t have enough experience on the matter but i strongly believe that if you’re with your one true love, happy endings follow. its automatic and no one can prevent it.
someday, when i get married, i pray that i will never have to share my husband's attention and love with another woman (or women!). i do not think i can carry on competing for attention everyday so that i will always be one step ahead of the other. i do not think i can stand feeling jealousy everyday and the pain of inadequacy - that i am not enough to make a person happy.
that’s why it is very important to be with somebody who loves you truly.
hay, i miss my bestfriend, thank you for all the love and attention.
Friday, August 31, 2007
quotable quote
"In a fast changing environment, it pays to ask oneself: Where am I now? What should I do that I am not doing? Why do I keep doing what I am doing? Is the direction I am heading still valid or do I need to make a "course correction"? Self-mastery begins with self-reflection. Self-reflection begins with learning to control attention."
- Serafin Talisayon, 99 Paradigm Shifts for Survival in the Knowledge Economy
- Serafin Talisayon, 99 Paradigm Shifts for Survival in the Knowledge Economy
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
a meme to peel away the layers of you
LAYER ONE:
-- Name(s): melyn catherine, cathy, jickjick
-- Birth date: november 20
-- Birthplace: cotabato city
-- Current Location: makati city
-- Eye Color: black
-- Hair Color: black
-- Height: about 5'3
-- Righty or Lefty: lefty (meaning: can’t dance decently and views are somewhat rebellious?)
-- Zodiac Sign: scorpio
LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: filipino, spanish (according to my dad's father)
-- The shoes you wore today: black, high-heeled, leather
-- Your weakness: holding my emotions
-- Your fears: death in the family and to be left alone by Joth
-- Your perfect pizza: new yorkers
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: earn a law degree (depends on the mood)
LAYER THREE:
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: sametime: hellow and pssst
-- Your first waking thoughts: I have to go to the bathroom
-- Your best physical feature: eyes? i dunno
-- Your most missed memory: happy moments with Joth
LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: water
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Adidas or Nike: adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: coffee
LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: im asthmatic
-- Cuss: nope, don’t know how and don’t like people who do
-- Sing: nevermind, its embarrassing
-- Take a shower everyday: yep
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes, very =)
-- Want to go to college: again? yes.
-- Liked high school: unforgettable
-- Want to get married: of course
-- Believe in yourself: sometimes
-- Get motion sickness: no, I love traveling
-- Think you're attractive: sometimes
-- Think you're a health freak: maybe
-- Get along with your parent(s): we’re close, very emotionally attached
-- Like thunderstorms: sometimes
-- Play an instrument: used to play the guitar
LAYER SIX: In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoked: never
-- Done a drug: never
-- Made Out: uhhhhhmmmm
-- Gone on a date: yep
-- Gone to the mall?: yup
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: no. i can only eat up to 2 per day
-- Eaten sushi: can't remember. I guess so, Kuya Tong’s pasalubong
-- Been on stage: yep
-- Been dumped: nope
-- Gone skating: wanted to
-- Made homemade cookies: no
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: no
-- Stolen Anything: no
LAYER SEVEN: Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes, longest line
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope, I have high alcohol tolerance
-- Been caught "doing something": yeah
-- Been called a tease: uhhhhhhhhmmmmm, everyday
-- Gotten beaten up: nope
-- Shoplifted: nope
-- Changed who you were to fit in: me?! i don't think so
LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: 27
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 3 (Boy-Girl-Boy); haven’t thought about the names
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: solemn, in an old church with long aisle
-- How do you want to die: at peace
-- Where you want to go to college: spent it at SU, great school
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: a lawyer. haha.
-- What country would you most like to visit: England, to see the ancient, hunted castles, haha
LAYER NINE:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: more than 5
-- Number of CDs that I own: i don't buy cds
-- Number of piercings: 2
-- Number of tattoos: 0
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: national, local and campus – a number of times
-- Number of scars on my body: lost count
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: none, i don't know
-- Name(s): melyn catherine, cathy, jickjick
-- Birth date: november 20
-- Birthplace: cotabato city
-- Current Location: makati city
-- Eye Color: black
-- Hair Color: black
-- Height: about 5'3
-- Righty or Lefty: lefty (meaning: can’t dance decently and views are somewhat rebellious?)
-- Zodiac Sign: scorpio
LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: filipino, spanish (according to my dad's father)
-- The shoes you wore today: black, high-heeled, leather
-- Your weakness: holding my emotions
-- Your fears: death in the family and to be left alone by Joth
-- Your perfect pizza: new yorkers
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: earn a law degree (depends on the mood)
LAYER THREE:
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: sametime: hellow and pssst
-- Your first waking thoughts: I have to go to the bathroom
-- Your best physical feature: eyes? i dunno
-- Your most missed memory: happy moments with Joth
LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: water
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Adidas or Nike: adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: coffee
LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: im asthmatic
-- Cuss: nope, don’t know how and don’t like people who do
-- Sing: nevermind, its embarrassing
-- Take a shower everyday: yep
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes, very =)
-- Want to go to college: again? yes.
-- Liked high school: unforgettable
-- Want to get married: of course
-- Believe in yourself: sometimes
-- Get motion sickness: no, I love traveling
-- Think you're attractive: sometimes
-- Think you're a health freak: maybe
-- Get along with your parent(s): we’re close, very emotionally attached
-- Like thunderstorms: sometimes
-- Play an instrument: used to play the guitar
LAYER SIX: In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoked: never
-- Done a drug: never
-- Made Out: uhhhhhmmmm
-- Gone on a date: yep
-- Gone to the mall?: yup
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: no. i can only eat up to 2 per day
-- Eaten sushi: can't remember. I guess so, Kuya Tong’s pasalubong
-- Been on stage: yep
-- Been dumped: nope
-- Gone skating: wanted to
-- Made homemade cookies: no
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: no
-- Stolen Anything: no
LAYER SEVEN: Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes, longest line
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope, I have high alcohol tolerance
-- Been caught "doing something": yeah
-- Been called a tease: uhhhhhhhhmmmmm, everyday
-- Gotten beaten up: nope
-- Shoplifted: nope
-- Changed who you were to fit in: me?! i don't think so
LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: 27
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 3 (Boy-Girl-Boy); haven’t thought about the names
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: solemn, in an old church with long aisle
-- How do you want to die: at peace
-- Where you want to go to college: spent it at SU, great school
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: a lawyer. haha.
-- What country would you most like to visit: England, to see the ancient, hunted castles, haha
LAYER NINE:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: more than 5
-- Number of CDs that I own: i don't buy cds
-- Number of piercings: 2
-- Number of tattoos: 0
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: national, local and campus – a number of times
-- Number of scars on my body: lost count
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: none, i don't know
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
flow of realization
Why can’t you concentrate and focus on what you’re reading, eh? Why do you miss him so much? Why do you always long to hug him, huh? Addiction is not good for you, you know.
I often wonder why you love him so much, how you endure one moody episode after another, how you bear with his super seloso and extraordinary kuripot ways, how you keep-up with his special closeness and attachment to his ex-of-eight years. How you have managed to be so patient and understanding in the most hurting, ridiculous and compromising situation is beyond me.
He is sweet, sometimes.
Kind, no, he is and will always be a bully.
Thoughtful, negotiable.
Understanding, no yes.
Childish, depends.
Possesive, slight, he has changed.
Caring, very.
Loving, yes.
Moody, unreasonable, hell yes! I think he has more PMS symptoms than you'd ever have.
I wonder why you love him this much because if he is somebody else’s boyfriend, I don't think he/she would have loved him as much as you do.
Oh, well. You must have gone crazy and very foolish, why you really love him remains a mystery. You’re not exactly trophy-girlfriend material, but when it comes to loving him, Cath, it is so hardcore, unfathomable, deep - it amazes me!
And now, for that dampa treat and three Aga look alike long-sleeves he kept on demanding and asking? Hmmm….
I often wonder why you love him so much, how you endure one moody episode after another, how you bear with his super seloso and extraordinary kuripot ways, how you keep-up with his special closeness and attachment to his ex-of-eight years. How you have managed to be so patient and understanding in the most hurting, ridiculous and compromising situation is beyond me.
He is sweet, sometimes.
Kind, no, he is and will always be a bully.
Thoughtful, negotiable.
Understanding, no yes.
Childish, depends.
Possesive, slight, he has changed.
Caring, very.
Loving, yes.
Moody, unreasonable, hell yes! I think he has more PMS symptoms than you'd ever have.
I wonder why you love him this much because if he is somebody else’s boyfriend, I don't think he/she would have loved him as much as you do.
Oh, well. You must have gone crazy and very foolish, why you really love him remains a mystery. You’re not exactly trophy-girlfriend material, but when it comes to loving him, Cath, it is so hardcore, unfathomable, deep - it amazes me!
And now, for that dampa treat and three Aga look alike long-sleeves he kept on demanding and asking? Hmmm….
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
PARTY OF FIVE!!!
FROM Miss Rachelle'S BLOG (hehehe...)
5 THINGS I FOUND IN MY BAG
a) umbrella
b) wallet
c) mobile phone
d) a bottle of Into the Blue by Escada
e) etc, such as kikay kit, pens, company ID, hand sanitizer, lotion
5 THINGS I FOUND IN MY WALLET
a) valid IDs – PRC, SU alumni, PICPA
b) CARDS -- ATM, credit cards, calling card, timezone
c) money (wow!!! i still have)
d) receipts from IIA, Chowking and Goldilocks
e) ID pictures of my self
5 FAVOURITE THINGS IN MY ROOM
a) tv
b) bookshelf
c) my baby joth
d) my bed!!!!
e) my personal desk
5 THINGS IVE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO
a) work in Wall Street or World Bank
b) tour the world
c) be a housewife and raise lots of beautiful kids
d) be an educator, a professor in a university
e) hit the Gym on a regular basis! ive always wanted to loose all my excess fats but I just don’t have enough motivation to exercise =(
5 THINGS I'M CURRENTLY INTO
a) blogging
b) spending quality and crazy time with my bestfriend....
c) budgeting my funds
d) reviewing for my CIA Exams, may God Bless me
e) missing my family and constantly yearning to go home
Miss Rachelle! Thank you for the idea of this post! I will surely miss you and all our chitchats, huhuhu. God bless to all your future endeavors, keep in touch okay. Take care.
5 THINGS I FOUND IN MY BAG
a) umbrella
b) wallet
c) mobile phone
d) a bottle of Into the Blue by Escada
e) etc, such as kikay kit, pens, company ID, hand sanitizer, lotion
5 THINGS I FOUND IN MY WALLET
a) valid IDs – PRC, SU alumni, PICPA
b) CARDS -- ATM, credit cards, calling card, timezone
c) money (wow!!! i still have)
d) receipts from IIA, Chowking and Goldilocks
e) ID pictures of my self
5 FAVOURITE THINGS IN MY ROOM
a) tv
b) bookshelf
c) my baby joth
d) my bed!!!!
e) my personal desk
5 THINGS IVE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO
a) work in Wall Street or World Bank
b) tour the world
c) be a housewife and raise lots of beautiful kids
d) be an educator, a professor in a university
e) hit the Gym on a regular basis! ive always wanted to loose all my excess fats but I just don’t have enough motivation to exercise =(
5 THINGS I'M CURRENTLY INTO
a) blogging
b) spending quality and crazy time with my bestfriend....
c) budgeting my funds
d) reviewing for my CIA Exams, may God Bless me
e) missing my family and constantly yearning to go home
Miss Rachelle! Thank you for the idea of this post! I will surely miss you and all our chitchats, huhuhu. God bless to all your future endeavors, keep in touch okay. Take care.
aaaaargh, addict me
Aargh. I feel guilty for writing this when I could be reviewing. Right now, I am probably only getting 50% of what I ought to accomplish...maybe less. It's not like I'm goofing off (more than within reason, anyway)... It's just that I do not have enough time to finish all that needs to be done. I feel like I need to have another 12 hours a day to cover and finish everything. But never mind. I just need to get this out of my system.
I love my Bestfriend. One helluva yes. I love him enough to fight for him, compromise for him, and sacrifice myself for him if need be.
Enough to miss him incredibly when we’re apart, just like now =(, no matter what length of time it’s for and regardless of the distance.
Enough to believe in our relationship, to stand by it through the worst of times, to have faith in our strength as a couple, and to never give up on us.
Enough to want to spend the rest of my life with him, be there for him when he needs or wants me, and never, ever want to leave him or live without him.
Aargh, I am indeed crazy. Call it addiction, but I would not have it any other way.
August 12, 2007, Sunday
I love my Bestfriend. One helluva yes. I love him enough to fight for him, compromise for him, and sacrifice myself for him if need be.
Enough to miss him incredibly when we’re apart, just like now =(, no matter what length of time it’s for and regardless of the distance.
Enough to believe in our relationship, to stand by it through the worst of times, to have faith in our strength as a couple, and to never give up on us.
Enough to want to spend the rest of my life with him, be there for him when he needs or wants me, and never, ever want to leave him or live without him.
Aargh, I am indeed crazy. Call it addiction, but I would not have it any other way.
August 12, 2007, Sunday
Saturday, August 04, 2007
i just cant shake that feeling of sadness…
how do you numb yourself from an inevitable misery?
how do you prepare your heart from an expected heartbreak?
how does one become unfeeling? how do you make yourself not to care too much to avoid the pain that might just kill you effortlessly?
can somebody please teach me ASAP?
how do you prepare your heart from an expected heartbreak?
how does one become unfeeling? how do you make yourself not to care too much to avoid the pain that might just kill you effortlessly?
can somebody please teach me ASAP?
Friday, August 03, 2007
the way to love someone is to realize that they might be lost
...the very reason why i am letting you know how much you mean to me each time i get the chance to tell you
...the very reason why i never hesitate to tell you how much i love you everyday of my life
...the very reason why i have to let you feel the sincerity of my care and love and the depth of my attachment with you
becasuse i might not be able to do these things once your gone.
...the very reason why i never hesitate to tell you how much i love you everyday of my life
...the very reason why i have to let you feel the sincerity of my care and love and the depth of my attachment with you
becasuse i might not be able to do these things once your gone.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
damnation
there are things, no matter how hard we try,
we just can't control.
like day and night,
like a handful of sand to fall from your grasp,
like the ending of a beautiful dream,
like tears to fall.
and i've come to realize,
today is the beginning of my demise.
im slowly dying inside and it hurts so bad.
we just can't control.
like day and night,
like a handful of sand to fall from your grasp,
like the ending of a beautiful dream,
like tears to fall.
and i've come to realize,
today is the beginning of my demise.
im slowly dying inside and it hurts so bad.
Monday, July 23, 2007
until it was over
after a battle with crippling depression, you realize two things:
first, it is best to let some things take its course to heal, because anything else -- like a false sense of finish, foolishly declaring to the world, "its okay, i am all right! i really don’t care" -- is denying how the heart and mind really heal;
and second, you find that life afterwards is still the same, with its disappointments and frustrations, criticisms and hard edges.
but you get to see clear sign posts now, which give you ample warning over the next bump in the road. (you also learn to avoid the cause of your worries, like the plague.)
oh, and one more thing: there's always someone in your life that made all the gloomy things bearable. someone who insisted to take part in all your pains and immaturities, someone who painstakingly listened to all your rants and someone who carefully made you see reason in the midst of your chaos. and for me, it was my anchor, my bestfriend. thank you =)
first, it is best to let some things take its course to heal, because anything else -- like a false sense of finish, foolishly declaring to the world, "its okay, i am all right! i really don’t care" -- is denying how the heart and mind really heal;
and second, you find that life afterwards is still the same, with its disappointments and frustrations, criticisms and hard edges.
but you get to see clear sign posts now, which give you ample warning over the next bump in the road. (you also learn to avoid the cause of your worries, like the plague.)
oh, and one more thing: there's always someone in your life that made all the gloomy things bearable. someone who insisted to take part in all your pains and immaturities, someone who painstakingly listened to all your rants and someone who carefully made you see reason in the midst of your chaos. and for me, it was my anchor, my bestfriend. thank you =)
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
random deadma(s)
why does one try to be perfect when he knew damn well that no one is?
why does one try to please everybody when he knew that it is impossible?
because its human nature to try and end up disappointed.
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let me de-pressurize! you do not have a right to say those bad things about me because you simply do not know me. i don’t mingle with you because i chose not to make fun and talk about other people behind their backs. i always kept to myself because i don’t have a business minding other people’s shortcomings and wrong doings. respecting other people’s privacy does not make me an anti-social. you haven’t tried approaching me and you never asked for an assistance, so i wonder, how was i unapproachable and inaccessible to you? aaaaaarg, deadma. bahala ka, i don’t have to explain my actions and my ways to you people. i am doing my work just fine and that’s it.
***************
sometimes im ok and sometimes im not. homesickness doesn't choose a time and place. it would just hit me like a lightning bolt. sometimes i just want to cry. i want to go home even for a while. just to see my family and hug daddygoon and momskymoo, be at my room, oblivious of the complicated things out there and to be just my lazy self.
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jams and i wouldn’t be attending the anniversary party on friday. i don’t want to be there witnessing my downfall and my failure. i promised myself that if i don't get promoted that night, i'll tender my resignation the following day, or maybe monday because the next day would be saturday. i really don't want to explain why. it would be better if others explain it for me.
but i badly want that promotion, not because i want to be recognized for my efforts but because of the better financial freedom it will bring me. i am so tired of not being able to do a lot of things because of financial constraints. good luck to all hopefuls and more to myself =(
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i am not in the mood for work today. i think that i am soooo lazy and uninspired. i need a break. another break? yes, please.
***************
im sad, i want to buy a running shoes. i have no budget.
***************
im glad! i bought my self a 40 Gigabytes USB for my enormous pictures, music, games and movie collections. and now i'm broke. another budget deficit.
***************
i had a long talk with jams over lunch and its sad to hear that i am still misunderstood by a lot of people. they think i am mataray, suplada and miss know-it-all. i have been very conscious of the manner i talk to people but it seems that even if i just keep quiet most of the time, i simply exude the image. haaay. i am not mataray and suplada, i may look serious most of the time, but really, im not. miss know it all? me? goddness. i may look intimidating sometimes because i try hard to muster some confidence each time im asked to explain something but i don’t pretend to know everything. i keep quiet and listen if i don’t know the topic or issue.
i know i should just ignore all the comments but i just can’t. i believe these are areas in my personality that needs improvement. but i am so damn frustrated right now. Grrrrrr.
see, how sensitive they can get? they, the bosses in my cluster, aka all the SAs and Managers.
***************
im wallowing in my miseries. i feel like the whole world is against me. whaaaaa! i hate it when im like this. ive been trying really hard to change my pessimist ways but old habits are to break, yaaaaaay.
***************
life is too short to make it dull and boring. so strive for the best to make it worth living dahil….
makulay ang buhay sa sinabawang gulay =)
why does one try to please everybody when he knew that it is impossible?
because its human nature to try and end up disappointed.
***************
let me de-pressurize! you do not have a right to say those bad things about me because you simply do not know me. i don’t mingle with you because i chose not to make fun and talk about other people behind their backs. i always kept to myself because i don’t have a business minding other people’s shortcomings and wrong doings. respecting other people’s privacy does not make me an anti-social. you haven’t tried approaching me and you never asked for an assistance, so i wonder, how was i unapproachable and inaccessible to you? aaaaaarg, deadma. bahala ka, i don’t have to explain my actions and my ways to you people. i am doing my work just fine and that’s it.
***************
sometimes im ok and sometimes im not. homesickness doesn't choose a time and place. it would just hit me like a lightning bolt. sometimes i just want to cry. i want to go home even for a while. just to see my family and hug daddygoon and momskymoo, be at my room, oblivious of the complicated things out there and to be just my lazy self.
***************
jams and i wouldn’t be attending the anniversary party on friday. i don’t want to be there witnessing my downfall and my failure. i promised myself that if i don't get promoted that night, i'll tender my resignation the following day, or maybe monday because the next day would be saturday. i really don't want to explain why. it would be better if others explain it for me.
but i badly want that promotion, not because i want to be recognized for my efforts but because of the better financial freedom it will bring me. i am so tired of not being able to do a lot of things because of financial constraints. good luck to all hopefuls and more to myself =(
***************
i am not in the mood for work today. i think that i am soooo lazy and uninspired. i need a break. another break? yes, please.
***************
im sad, i want to buy a running shoes. i have no budget.
***************
im glad! i bought my self a 40 Gigabytes USB for my enormous pictures, music, games and movie collections. and now i'm broke. another budget deficit.
***************
i had a long talk with jams over lunch and its sad to hear that i am still misunderstood by a lot of people. they think i am mataray, suplada and miss know-it-all. i have been very conscious of the manner i talk to people but it seems that even if i just keep quiet most of the time, i simply exude the image. haaay. i am not mataray and suplada, i may look serious most of the time, but really, im not. miss know it all? me? goddness. i may look intimidating sometimes because i try hard to muster some confidence each time im asked to explain something but i don’t pretend to know everything. i keep quiet and listen if i don’t know the topic or issue.
i know i should just ignore all the comments but i just can’t. i believe these are areas in my personality that needs improvement. but i am so damn frustrated right now. Grrrrrr.
see, how sensitive they can get? they, the bosses in my cluster, aka all the SAs and Managers.
***************
im wallowing in my miseries. i feel like the whole world is against me. whaaaaa! i hate it when im like this. ive been trying really hard to change my pessimist ways but old habits are to break, yaaaaaay.
***************
life is too short to make it dull and boring. so strive for the best to make it worth living dahil….
makulay ang buhay sa sinabawang gulay =)
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
issue 101
public display of affection: how much is too much?
a public display of affection (PDA) can best be described as a show of affection between two people who care for or love each other in a public place. for example, holding hands, a hug, a small peck or kissing in public are commonly defined as public displays of affection.
an issue that haunts me since someone told me i’m so PDA. it must have stroke a cord in me for i have been really bothered. though, i wasn’t the least embarrassed or sorry to the world for being one but i’m most concerned for the other party involve. are you embarrassed Best? do you feel humiliated because other people are watching you show some affection?
these acts of human affection are, for me is just becoming true to myself. i am in love and i feel so blessed and thankful for having that someone in my life. and i believe that it is perfectly normal to express my appreciation of him openly. as far i know, i haven’t gone overboard or did what is not acceptable.
we all know what PDA is. we have all seen it. we have all done it: when we held an aunt’s hand in the supermarket; when, as children, we kissed each other goodbye in the middle of the street; when, as adolescents, we let our boyfriend (or girlfriend) hold our hands in the theatres; and when, as adults, we kiss our lovers before they ride a bus, a jeep or board a plane. We have all committed the act of PDA.
so how much is too much? according to my research, much depends on how we were raised, our cultural backgrounds and orientation. did we see our parents commit the act of PDA? these are all important in determining how much is too much when it comes to PDA. in the end, it seems the question of what is too much is better put another way. how much PDA do you tolerate? your tolerance level provides you with your own gauge of what is too much.
so the next time we are in a park, a bus, or in the theater and saw a couple doing the act of PDA, let’s see how long it takes for us to get uncomfortable. really, really uncomfortable. now we know how much is too much. at least in our eyes.
a public display of affection (PDA) can best be described as a show of affection between two people who care for or love each other in a public place. for example, holding hands, a hug, a small peck or kissing in public are commonly defined as public displays of affection.
an issue that haunts me since someone told me i’m so PDA. it must have stroke a cord in me for i have been really bothered. though, i wasn’t the least embarrassed or sorry to the world for being one but i’m most concerned for the other party involve. are you embarrassed Best? do you feel humiliated because other people are watching you show some affection?
these acts of human affection are, for me is just becoming true to myself. i am in love and i feel so blessed and thankful for having that someone in my life. and i believe that it is perfectly normal to express my appreciation of him openly. as far i know, i haven’t gone overboard or did what is not acceptable.
we all know what PDA is. we have all seen it. we have all done it: when we held an aunt’s hand in the supermarket; when, as children, we kissed each other goodbye in the middle of the street; when, as adolescents, we let our boyfriend (or girlfriend) hold our hands in the theatres; and when, as adults, we kiss our lovers before they ride a bus, a jeep or board a plane. We have all committed the act of PDA.
so how much is too much? according to my research, much depends on how we were raised, our cultural backgrounds and orientation. did we see our parents commit the act of PDA? these are all important in determining how much is too much when it comes to PDA. in the end, it seems the question of what is too much is better put another way. how much PDA do you tolerate? your tolerance level provides you with your own gauge of what is too much.
so the next time we are in a park, a bus, or in the theater and saw a couple doing the act of PDA, let’s see how long it takes for us to get uncomfortable. really, really uncomfortable. now we know how much is too much. at least in our eyes.
Sunday, July 08, 2007
the boy who stole my heart
It is still and will always be a wonder and a mystery to me our coming together. Every time I go back to our beginnings I find none. And it matters not. My love for you goes beyond any explanation or any story, it is like eternity that wipes away all sense of time, removing all memory of a nonexistent and an inauspicious beginning and all fear of an end.
I believe God made everything with a reason and I strongly believe that having you in my life was planned for a greater purpose. It has been a blessing for me to love you and to be a part of my life. There may be pains but I am willing to put up a war and fight for you because no matter what will happen to us in the future you will forever and always my Baby.
I love you Best and my heart is always with you. For the short time we have known each other, you’ve been the best part of my life for the man in you, makes the woman in me. You gave me love more than what I had ever expected and it truly amazes me that my heart is always outpouring with joy and gladness in loving you the same and more.
A day with you is like a fantasy in wonderland. It mentally refreshes my being, sooths my soul with calmness and inspires me big time. I strongly feel that no words can express how I truly feel when were together. If only, I could stop the moment each time were together, I definitely would. Thank you because you never fail to make me smile and make me laugh foolish with the simple things you do and say.
Though sometimes you annoy me and frustrate me, so bad that I just want to kick you in the ass with all my might. But to live a life without you would be like to die in pain and misery. And I just can't quite imagine going through with the rest of this lifetime without you around. There may be a lot of things that we still need to work out, but I wouldn't want to change anything just yet =)
It is my prayer to God to bless our coming together and to be always there for us to console our hearts and lead our minds towards a more inspiring and meaningful relationship.
Happy Birthday Best!
Hmm… as for my stolen heart, i won't take it back, you can keep it.
I believe God made everything with a reason and I strongly believe that having you in my life was planned for a greater purpose. It has been a blessing for me to love you and to be a part of my life. There may be pains but I am willing to put up a war and fight for you because no matter what will happen to us in the future you will forever and always my Baby.
I love you Best and my heart is always with you. For the short time we have known each other, you’ve been the best part of my life for the man in you, makes the woman in me. You gave me love more than what I had ever expected and it truly amazes me that my heart is always outpouring with joy and gladness in loving you the same and more.
A day with you is like a fantasy in wonderland. It mentally refreshes my being, sooths my soul with calmness and inspires me big time. I strongly feel that no words can express how I truly feel when were together. If only, I could stop the moment each time were together, I definitely would. Thank you because you never fail to make me smile and make me laugh foolish with the simple things you do and say.
Though sometimes you annoy me and frustrate me, so bad that I just want to kick you in the ass with all my might. But to live a life without you would be like to die in pain and misery. And I just can't quite imagine going through with the rest of this lifetime without you around. There may be a lot of things that we still need to work out, but I wouldn't want to change anything just yet =)
It is my prayer to God to bless our coming together and to be always there for us to console our hearts and lead our minds towards a more inspiring and meaningful relationship.
Happy Birthday Best!
Hmm… as for my stolen heart, i won't take it back, you can keep it.
Monday, July 02, 2007
today
i have never been so tense like this since the afternoon of the May 2005 when while waiting for the results of the CPA Board Exams. whew!!!
i feel like i am a new person. i think i have undergone a major rebirth of some sort. and i just hope i won't mess up this another chance--this new start given to me.
oh help me God, please.
i feel like i am a new person. i think i have undergone a major rebirth of some sort. and i just hope i won't mess up this another chance--this new start given to me.
oh help me God, please.
Sunday, July 01, 2007
coming soon: the bohol adventure
i know... i should have posted about our Bohol adventure days ago but im just not in the mood. there were so much to do and a lot of things to attend to =( yes, audit life is once again becoming so demanding. whew!
but nevertheless...watch out for it guys! its coming soon! =)
just to give you a glimpse:
exquisite =)
but nevertheless...watch out for it guys! its coming soon! =)
just to give you a glimpse:
exquisite =)
when i met you
There I was an empty piece of a shell,
Just mindin' my own world;
Without even knowin' what love and life were all about.
Then you came,
You brought me out of the shell;
You gave the world to me
And before I knew,
There I was so in love with you.
You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feelin'
You gave me a meaning to my life,
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you.
I love the touch of your hair
And when I look in your eyes
I just know, I know I'm on to something good
And I'm sure my love for you will endure
Your love will light up my world;
And take all my cares away with the aching part of me.
You taught me how to love,
You showed me how tomorrow and today
My life is diff'rent from the yesterday;
And you, you taught me how to love
And Babe I will always cherish you
Today, tomorrow and forever.
You gave me a meaning to my life,
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you.
When I met you.
Happy Monthsarry, bestfriend =)
Just mindin' my own world;
Without even knowin' what love and life were all about.
Then you came,
You brought me out of the shell;
You gave the world to me
And before I knew,
There I was so in love with you.
You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feelin'
You gave me a meaning to my life,
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you.
I love the touch of your hair
And when I look in your eyes
I just know, I know I'm on to something good
And I'm sure my love for you will endure
Your love will light up my world;
And take all my cares away with the aching part of me.
You taught me how to love,
You showed me how tomorrow and today
My life is diff'rent from the yesterday;
And you, you taught me how to love
And Babe I will always cherish you
Today, tomorrow and forever.
You gave me a meaning to my life,
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you.
When I met you.
Happy Monthsarry, bestfriend =)
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
the desolation
don't leave a hormonally-impaired, stubborn girl alone. don't leave her while she's having a mad craving to be with you.
don't mind her senseless talk, interrupted by her even more absurd remarks.
talk to her while she's half-asleep, her eyes transfixed on the ceiling, watching the shadows play tricks on her head.
talk to her how your day was, talk about the weather, yes, the weather. while it's a humid monday night and the sky is empty save for a quarter-moon and a lone star.
try to imagine her with her hair a splash of ink on her pillows, her eyes intense pools of yearning.
don't ask her how she is, or what she's doing, or why.
don't take her hand, don't touch her gently and never, ever give her reasons to hope.
stop telling her how you miss her.
stop being inane. stop staring. stop smiling, please.
stop when she tells you to do so. (but you should know damn well what that means.)
now, close your eyes and stroke her hair.
never ask her if she misses you because she loves you forever.
just be quiet, sadness has never treated her this cruel.
the sun is rising and everything is washed in all shades of blue as a silly girl opens her eyes from a wicked sleep.
don't mind her senseless talk, interrupted by her even more absurd remarks.
talk to her while she's half-asleep, her eyes transfixed on the ceiling, watching the shadows play tricks on her head.
talk to her how your day was, talk about the weather, yes, the weather. while it's a humid monday night and the sky is empty save for a quarter-moon and a lone star.
try to imagine her with her hair a splash of ink on her pillows, her eyes intense pools of yearning.
don't ask her how she is, or what she's doing, or why.
don't take her hand, don't touch her gently and never, ever give her reasons to hope.
stop telling her how you miss her.
stop being inane. stop staring. stop smiling, please.
stop when she tells you to do so. (but you should know damn well what that means.)
now, close your eyes and stroke her hair.
never ask her if she misses you because she loves you forever.
just be quiet, sadness has never treated her this cruel.
the sun is rising and everything is washed in all shades of blue as a silly girl opens her eyes from a wicked sleep.
Monday, June 18, 2007
joke time!!!
Ei guys! Joke time muna tayo kahit corny.. hehehe..
* batA nALunOd,.. nAtaGpuAn baSa!!!!
* dalawang kalbo,nag-sabunutan.
* Capt. Hook dumaan sa Quiapo, pinirata!!!
* Palaisdaan, nasunog!!!
* Tahanang Walang Hagdan, inakyat!!!
* Bakla sumali sa away, napasubo!!!
* Bagong tuli nagyabang, lumaki ang ulo!!!
* Unanong madre, napagkamalang penguin!!!
* Bulag nakapatay, nagdilim daw ang paningin!!!
* Iceman nanood ng porno, nag-init!!!
* Tindera ng suka, tinoyo!!!
* Teacher nagkamali, tinuruan ng leksyon!!!
* Lolo naakusahang nang-rape, pero sakorte....biktima ayaw tumayo!!!
* Eroplano nag-crash, lahat ng pasahero namatay sabi ng mga survivor!!!
* Basurero nagsampa ng kaso, binasura!!!
* Dahil may reklamo, eskwelahan ng mga bingi nag-noise barrage!!!
* Tubero, nagka-tulo!!!
* Lalaki natagpuang pugot ang ulo,inaalam pa kung buhay!!!
* Barbero tumestigo sa krimen, ayaw paniwalaan!!!
* Misis ng photographer, nakunan!!!
* Tindera ng tubig, namatay sa uhaw!!!
* batA nALunOd,.. nAtaGpuAn baSa!!!!
* dalawang kalbo,nag-sabunutan.
* Capt. Hook dumaan sa Quiapo, pinirata!!!
* Palaisdaan, nasunog!!!
* Tahanang Walang Hagdan, inakyat!!!
* Bakla sumali sa away, napasubo!!!
* Bagong tuli nagyabang, lumaki ang ulo!!!
* Unanong madre, napagkamalang penguin!!!
* Bulag nakapatay, nagdilim daw ang paningin!!!
* Iceman nanood ng porno, nag-init!!!
* Tindera ng suka, tinoyo!!!
* Teacher nagkamali, tinuruan ng leksyon!!!
* Lolo naakusahang nang-rape, pero sakorte....biktima ayaw tumayo!!!
* Eroplano nag-crash, lahat ng pasahero namatay sabi ng mga survivor!!!
* Basurero nagsampa ng kaso, binasura!!!
* Dahil may reklamo, eskwelahan ng mga bingi nag-noise barrage!!!
* Tubero, nagka-tulo!!!
* Lalaki natagpuang pugot ang ulo,inaalam pa kung buhay!!!
* Barbero tumestigo sa krimen, ayaw paniwalaan!!!
* Misis ng photographer, nakunan!!!
* Tindera ng tubig, namatay sa uhaw!!!
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Thursday, June 14, 2007
nothing can stop us now
soft as a rainbow
like stardust and moonglow
i see the love in your eyes
like autumn leaves falling
and the first call of morning
it came to my surprise
true love calls just once in a lifetime
why should we wait
when now is the right time?
nothing can stop this love we're making
nothing can stand in our way
nothing can block this road we've taken
nothing can stop us now
the joy of surrender
so strong yet so tender
i give my heart to you
you know you can trust me
and that's how it must be
no matter what we do
faithful friends and lovers forever
right to the end we'll always be together
nothing can stop this love we're making
nothing can stand in our way
nothing can block this road we've taken
nothing can stop us now
when love comes sweetly to your door
embrace completely
what your soul is longing for
nothing can stop this love we're making
nothing can stand in our way
nothing can block this road we've taken
nothing can stop us now
nothing can stop us now ;p
like stardust and moonglow
i see the love in your eyes
like autumn leaves falling
and the first call of morning
it came to my surprise
true love calls just once in a lifetime
why should we wait
when now is the right time?
nothing can stop this love we're making
nothing can stand in our way
nothing can block this road we've taken
nothing can stop us now
the joy of surrender
so strong yet so tender
i give my heart to you
you know you can trust me
and that's how it must be
no matter what we do
faithful friends and lovers forever
right to the end we'll always be together
nothing can stop this love we're making
nothing can stand in our way
nothing can block this road we've taken
nothing can stop us now
when love comes sweetly to your door
embrace completely
what your soul is longing for
nothing can stop this love we're making
nothing can stand in our way
nothing can block this road we've taken
nothing can stop us now
nothing can stop us now ;p
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Aunt May says, “You must be ready to put her before yourself. Are you ready to do that Peter?”
Spiderman 3.
The movie is so memorable it will forever be part of what I have become today (in so short a time) and what I will be in the future.
There’s this scene between Aunt May and Peter talking about marriage, settling down and the future wife. Aunt May told Peter Parker, “You must be ready to put her before yourself. Are you ready to do that Peter?”, Aunt May also said that a man needs to put her wife above all things when he marries the woman.
Are you willing to do that Best? Would you put me above all things? My heart says you would ;p
The movie is so memorable it will forever be part of what I have become today (in so short a time) and what I will be in the future.
There’s this scene between Aunt May and Peter talking about marriage, settling down and the future wife. Aunt May told Peter Parker, “You must be ready to put her before yourself. Are you ready to do that Peter?”, Aunt May also said that a man needs to put her wife above all things when he marries the woman.
Are you willing to do that Best? Would you put me above all things? My heart says you would ;p
Monday, June 11, 2007
why do people blog anyway?
to vent out. to express emotions they couldn't say face to face. to rant until all you can feel is emptiness. and then reread your entries and shake your head in embarrassment and amusement because as they say, para kang sinasapian ng third force.
eh ako, bakit ako nagboblog?
for the same reasons given above. i am more of an emotional blogger. mas mababasa mo sa mga entries ko kung ano ang nararamdaman ko at that time. masaya, magulo, pero madalas malungkot. ewan ko ba, sadness makes me feel more expressive. siguro kasi mas nakakapagisip ako pag malungkot ako.
pero iba ngayon. sobrang saya ko, dahil…
dahil sa kanya... ;p
eh ako, bakit ako nagboblog?
for the same reasons given above. i am more of an emotional blogger. mas mababasa mo sa mga entries ko kung ano ang nararamdaman ko at that time. masaya, magulo, pero madalas malungkot. ewan ko ba, sadness makes me feel more expressive. siguro kasi mas nakakapagisip ako pag malungkot ako.
pero iba ngayon. sobrang saya ko, dahil…
dahil sa kanya... ;p
dahil sa baby ko.
Ang sarap mabuhay ano? =)
Best, salamat.
simple life
tagged again =) and i just love answering these questions just for the fun and joy of it.
1. What are the things you enjoy, even when no one around you wants to go out and play?
- asking silly, stupid, obvious questions just for the heck of it
- talking to myself, just audible enough to the next person to prompt him or her to ask what i just said and replying "Nothing"
- reading, then laughing out so loud when i read something funny and totally ignoring people when they ask me why i did so
(basically, these three mean i enjoy annoying / freaking out people.
If there's no one to annoy/freak out, these two apply:
- sleeping, and sleeping some more
- eating, and eating some more
2. What lowers your stress / blood pressure / anxiety level?
- malling alone in Glorietta while talking to myself aloud, which freaks people a lot (just don't make me sing aloud, that would be freakier)
- ranting out to people and making sure that by the end of the day, they are as pissed of as i am
- stalking people or people's friendster and blog(see, i love attention-seeking anonymity)
- sleeping, and sleeping some more
- eating, and eating some more
see, i have always considered my self to be a simple, low maintenance person…that is, if i feel like it. hahaha.
1. What are the things you enjoy, even when no one around you wants to go out and play?
- asking silly, stupid, obvious questions just for the heck of it
- talking to myself, just audible enough to the next person to prompt him or her to ask what i just said and replying "Nothing"
- reading, then laughing out so loud when i read something funny and totally ignoring people when they ask me why i did so
(basically, these three mean i enjoy annoying / freaking out people.
If there's no one to annoy/freak out, these two apply:
- sleeping, and sleeping some more
- eating, and eating some more
2. What lowers your stress / blood pressure / anxiety level?
- malling alone in Glorietta while talking to myself aloud, which freaks people a lot (just don't make me sing aloud, that would be freakier)
- ranting out to people and making sure that by the end of the day, they are as pissed of as i am
- stalking people or people's friendster and blog(see, i love attention-seeking anonymity)
- sleeping, and sleeping some more
- eating, and eating some more
see, i have always considered my self to be a simple, low maintenance person…that is, if i feel like it. hahaha.
Saturday, June 09, 2007
on attitude
when we believe we’re right , we shut everything else that may disprove that we are indeed wrong.
and then maturity and reason sets in and we realize that we need to broaden our horizons and learn to accept that others have a point and they can be right and we were simply just wrong.
if maturity sets in.
hay, nakaka-asar kasi talaga. PMDP anyone? grrrrr. hmmmm, cathy, its all about in the attitude, okay.
"I believe the single most significant decision I can make on a day-to-day basis is my choice of attitude. It is more important than my past, my education, my successes or failures, what other people think of me or say about me, my circumstances or my position. Attitude keeps me going or cripples my progress. It alone fuels my fire or assaults my hope. When my attitude is right, there is no barrier too high, no valley too deep, no dream too extreme, no challenge too great for me."
-Charles R. Swindoll, American writer and clergyman
and then maturity and reason sets in and we realize that we need to broaden our horizons and learn to accept that others have a point and they can be right and we were simply just wrong.
if maturity sets in.
hay, nakaka-asar kasi talaga. PMDP anyone? grrrrr. hmmmm, cathy, its all about in the attitude, okay.
"I believe the single most significant decision I can make on a day-to-day basis is my choice of attitude. It is more important than my past, my education, my successes or failures, what other people think of me or say about me, my circumstances or my position. Attitude keeps me going or cripples my progress. It alone fuels my fire or assaults my hope. When my attitude is right, there is no barrier too high, no valley too deep, no dream too extreme, no challenge too great for me."
-Charles R. Swindoll, American writer and clergyman
sweet home alabama
“What do you want to be married to me for?”
“So I can kiss you anytime I want…”
while waiting for the client’s schedules and pertinent documents to vouch and having nothing better things to do… i watched Sweet Home Alabama.
just months ago marriage for me is a far fetched thing, an unknown. but things are slowly beginning to change, drastically. and, i am neither worried nor afraid, i am actually excited and loving the thought of spending the rest of my life with someone i truly love.
“So I can kiss you anytime I want…”
while waiting for the client’s schedules and pertinent documents to vouch and having nothing better things to do… i watched Sweet Home Alabama.
just months ago marriage for me is a far fetched thing, an unknown. but things are slowly beginning to change, drastically. and, i am neither worried nor afraid, i am actually excited and loving the thought of spending the rest of my life with someone i truly love.
.
whoaa! hinay-hinay lang =)
.
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June 09, 2007, Thursday
Monday, June 04, 2007
nobody knows it but me
things are really different when he isn't here. i started and about to end the day feeling extremely sluggish and sleepy. to say that i miss him is an understatement, that, coupled with a mild depression make for a terribly unproductive day.
as the hours go by, i'll be off to a deep reverie but i can't seem to write what i think. on pen (or the keyboard, or my keypad) the words seem silly if not contrived. i can’t articulate nor make these thoughts tangible --- I'm totally at a loss for words. there are many things i want to express but the words wont come out the way i wanted to.
over and over, i've been playing these two particular songs. if anything comes close to these thoughts now, let Tony Rich Project’s Nobody Knows It But Me and Cueshe’s Can’t Let You Go fill my lips.
best, balik ka na Manila please.
as the hours go by, i'll be off to a deep reverie but i can't seem to write what i think. on pen (or the keyboard, or my keypad) the words seem silly if not contrived. i can’t articulate nor make these thoughts tangible --- I'm totally at a loss for words. there are many things i want to express but the words wont come out the way i wanted to.
over and over, i've been playing these two particular songs. if anything comes close to these thoughts now, let Tony Rich Project’s Nobody Knows It But Me and Cueshe’s Can’t Let You Go fill my lips.
best, balik ka na Manila please.
pangako ko
Meron nga bang scientific studies na nagpapatunay na chemical reaction lang ang ating nararamdaman sa ating mga katawan kapag na i-inlove? Totoo kayang chemicals lang sa katawan ang nagdudulot ng ganitong pakiramdam? Sadya ba’ng reaction lang sa katawan ang mga kantang naririnig at parang isinulat sa kasaysayan ng inyong pagmamahalan? Kung bakit ang mga taong umiiibig ay parang nawawala sa kanyang sarili; kung bakit ang feeling ay naglalakad sa ulap, ang araw ay minamarkahan ng bawat napakasayang alaala, ang bawat sandali ay nagiging yugto ng kwentong punong-puno ng lambing at kahulugan. Bakit nga ba sa ngalan ng pag-ibig lahat ng hindi akalaing kayang gawin ay nagagawa? Humahaba ang pasensya…lumalakas ang loob? At higit sa lahat bakit ang saya-saya? Oo nga, bakit ang saya-saya? – from the movie, Now That I have You
i didn’t know i was an extremely jealous person – until now. now that i have you, now that i have found love, now that i have learned how to give my all for the one i truly love. but i always keep that jealousy in me...not letting that person know what i really feel. keeping it till i burst into pieces. who ever invented that emotion, curse him. i hate the emotion.
i have no one to blame but myself. ang hirap. sana lagi na lang masaya dahil mahal naman kita. pero bakit ganun. ewan ko. ang alam ko i truly love you kaya ganito ako. "i love you" have been the most mis-used and abused word for me nowadays. i know i mean it and i am most sincere everytime those words were uttered. for me, i leave the rest to the person on how he would reciprocate to it.
tonight i really ached. ang bigat ng gabi ko at naramdaman ko talaga na may nag-iba sa pagkatao ko. sa ikli ng panahong nagkakilala at nagkasama tayo sya naman laki ng naging epekto mo sa buhay ko. mababaliw ata ako pag nawala ka. pero hindi ata tama na pasalamatan kita, so i will make you a promise instead. na simula ngayong gabi, at sa mga susunod pang mga gabi at araw, i will build on my aches so i will be braver in my dreams and actions. mahal lang siguro talaga kita, best.
June 03, 2007, Sunday
i didn’t know i was an extremely jealous person – until now. now that i have you, now that i have found love, now that i have learned how to give my all for the one i truly love. but i always keep that jealousy in me...not letting that person know what i really feel. keeping it till i burst into pieces. who ever invented that emotion, curse him. i hate the emotion.
i have no one to blame but myself. ang hirap. sana lagi na lang masaya dahil mahal naman kita. pero bakit ganun. ewan ko. ang alam ko i truly love you kaya ganito ako. "i love you" have been the most mis-used and abused word for me nowadays. i know i mean it and i am most sincere everytime those words were uttered. for me, i leave the rest to the person on how he would reciprocate to it.
tonight i really ached. ang bigat ng gabi ko at naramdaman ko talaga na may nag-iba sa pagkatao ko. sa ikli ng panahong nagkakilala at nagkasama tayo sya naman laki ng naging epekto mo sa buhay ko. mababaliw ata ako pag nawala ka. pero hindi ata tama na pasalamatan kita, so i will make you a promise instead. na simula ngayong gabi, at sa mga susunod pang mga gabi at araw, i will build on my aches so i will be braver in my dreams and actions. mahal lang siguro talaga kita, best.
June 03, 2007, Sunday
ang totoo
minsan, ang hirap magsabi ng truth. promise.
like for example, may magtatanong sa iyo:
"may problema ka ba?"
simpleng tanong. pero pano mo sasabihin sa taong yun na oo, meron, ikaw ang problema ko. hirap di ba? hahaba pa yun eh. e di quiet ka na lang.
hay. eh kung ganito:
"okay ka lang?"
syempre hindi, kasi nga sya problema mo. pero dahil ayaw mo mahalata nya, o kaya natatakot ka na baka may magbago, e di quiet ka pa din.
"oo, okay lang ako."
bakit nga ba mahirap magsabi ng kung ano nasa isip mo?
kung ikaw ay katulad ko, malamang ganito sabihin mo:
"kasi ayoko sya masaktan and mahirapan."
"kasi ayokong masaktan."
"kasi hahaba lang, wala rin naman pupuntahan."
in short, takot ka sa rejection. so quiet ka na lang. tulad ko. quiet na lang.
The end.
Sana minsan di na ako matakot magalit.
June 02, 2007, Saturday
like for example, may magtatanong sa iyo:
"may problema ka ba?"
simpleng tanong. pero pano mo sasabihin sa taong yun na oo, meron, ikaw ang problema ko. hirap di ba? hahaba pa yun eh. e di quiet ka na lang.
hay. eh kung ganito:
"okay ka lang?"
syempre hindi, kasi nga sya problema mo. pero dahil ayaw mo mahalata nya, o kaya natatakot ka na baka may magbago, e di quiet ka pa din.
"oo, okay lang ako."
bakit nga ba mahirap magsabi ng kung ano nasa isip mo?
kung ikaw ay katulad ko, malamang ganito sabihin mo:
"kasi ayoko sya masaktan and mahirapan."
"kasi ayokong masaktan."
"kasi hahaba lang, wala rin naman pupuntahan."
in short, takot ka sa rejection. so quiet ka na lang. tulad ko. quiet na lang.
The end.
Sana minsan di na ako matakot magalit.
June 02, 2007, Saturday
Friday, June 01, 2007
happy thoughts
i've always suspected that i'd fall in love in a big way, and i did...
i'm glad it's you...
oh, i meant you.. :D
Happy first monthsarry, best =)
Thursday, May 31, 2007
i'm gonna break your heart, you better run and hide
Did you know that:
In a normal person, the heart beats 70 times a minute. That's 100,800 times a day, 40 million times a year! During a single day, a ventricle pumps about 11,000 quarts or 265 million quarts a lifetime.
What's the relevance? Ang sipag ng heart, sobra!
Pero tatanga-tanga naman. Hay.
In a normal person, the heart beats 70 times a minute. That's 100,800 times a day, 40 million times a year! During a single day, a ventricle pumps about 11,000 quarts or 265 million quarts a lifetime.
What's the relevance? Ang sipag ng heart, sobra!
Pero tatanga-tanga naman. Hay.
Monday, May 28, 2007
unfeeling apathy
i can't think
because i don't want to
i can't feel
because i don't want to
i won't talk
because i don't have to
i won't listen
because i don't have to
i won't move
because i don't have to
i won't look
because i don't have to
When it stops to hurt, then it shall have become so insignificant. It shall matter no longer.
Should I then wish for the hurting to continue? I think not.
You come to a point when you can change no more. You have to stop lest you lose yourself completely in the process. You would not want to lose your identity, would you?
Somewhere along the way, all this nonsense must be turned away. You can only believe so much of what you are led to believe. Then the truth will have to surface. It has to, eventually, anyway.
My hands are beginning to numb. My heart has tempered its beating. My tears have almost run out.
Hanging kelan kaya ganito? Pano pag darating na ang araw na ayaw na sa iyo ng isang tao, ipagpipilitan mo pa ba ang sarili mo sa kanya?
because i don't want to
i can't feel
because i don't want to
i won't talk
because i don't have to
i won't listen
because i don't have to
i won't move
because i don't have to
i won't look
because i don't have to
When it stops to hurt, then it shall have become so insignificant. It shall matter no longer.
Should I then wish for the hurting to continue? I think not.
You come to a point when you can change no more. You have to stop lest you lose yourself completely in the process. You would not want to lose your identity, would you?
Somewhere along the way, all this nonsense must be turned away. You can only believe so much of what you are led to believe. Then the truth will have to surface. It has to, eventually, anyway.
My hands are beginning to numb. My heart has tempered its beating. My tears have almost run out.
Hanging kelan kaya ganito? Pano pag darating na ang araw na ayaw na sa iyo ng isang tao, ipagpipilitan mo pa ba ang sarili mo sa kanya?
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
deep in thought
when i was a kid,there was a period of time when every night, before i go to sleep, i would cry. i cried because i was scared of losing my parents. i cowered at the thought that one day i would have to live my life apart from them. i never figured out what triggered that. that phase is probably a normal part of childhood.
i never had the chance to tell my parents about that fear. i just made sure they wouldn't hear me. the crying spells went on for a few weeks...i just tried to assure myself, "it's gonna be okay. they will always be there to watch over you until you're ready to be on your own." one night, i just stopped crying. i guess it was at that point that i actually started to look forward to one day becoming an adult, willing and able to take care of myself.
here, now...i am actually supposed to be one...an adult who's self-sufficient. besides, i'm now entitled to take care of my own affairs, enjoy my independence and complete free will. i am to relish everything that comes with this label...supposedly. somehow, i find myself wishing i could go back to that time when i would snuggle beside my parents when i got scared or sad. sometimes, when i get tired of being an adult, i wish really hard that even for just a second i could be that helpless kid again...crying out of fear and neediness. at least, as a kid i allowed myself to cling with all my might to my parents' protective love. now, i just use all my might to try and let go of all my weakness. problem is, i just don't have that strength to be strong enough on my own.
maybe it's time to realize that even an adult needs to get weak every now and then...that "on my own" need not be the goal. maybe the pretention makes me weaker now than when i used to cry like a baby. maybe strength and independence do not necessarily have to be mutually exclusive.
maybe it's about time i let somebody hear me crying...
i never had the chance to tell my parents about that fear. i just made sure they wouldn't hear me. the crying spells went on for a few weeks...i just tried to assure myself, "it's gonna be okay. they will always be there to watch over you until you're ready to be on your own." one night, i just stopped crying. i guess it was at that point that i actually started to look forward to one day becoming an adult, willing and able to take care of myself.
here, now...i am actually supposed to be one...an adult who's self-sufficient. besides, i'm now entitled to take care of my own affairs, enjoy my independence and complete free will. i am to relish everything that comes with this label...supposedly. somehow, i find myself wishing i could go back to that time when i would snuggle beside my parents when i got scared or sad. sometimes, when i get tired of being an adult, i wish really hard that even for just a second i could be that helpless kid again...crying out of fear and neediness. at least, as a kid i allowed myself to cling with all my might to my parents' protective love. now, i just use all my might to try and let go of all my weakness. problem is, i just don't have that strength to be strong enough on my own.
maybe it's time to realize that even an adult needs to get weak every now and then...that "on my own" need not be the goal. maybe the pretention makes me weaker now than when i used to cry like a baby. maybe strength and independence do not necessarily have to be mutually exclusive.
maybe it's about time i let somebody hear me crying...
Thursday, May 24, 2007
pain
if pain must come, may it come quickly because i have a life to live, and i need to live it in the best way possible.
if you have to make a choice, may you make it now. then i will either wait for you or forget you.
waiting is painful, forgetting is painful.
but not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.
if you have to make a choice, may you make it now. then i will either wait for you or forget you.
waiting is painful, forgetting is painful.
but not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.
if i'd die tonight, i'd die happy
inside my head is a carnival of happy thoughts; of the fondest of memories of the people i love most, of embraces with the warmest of touch, of a special glance, of the sweetest of smiles like cotton candy refusing to melt, of genuine laughter that makes my heart swell, of the days when the sun caresses my face, of the air that reminds me of freshly cut grass, and of knowing how to love and being loved back.
my lips sing with lyrics and metaphors of feelings so big and ready to burst. i see memories flying with the leaves, conniving with the wind to take them farther than my imagination could ever fathom. they will be preserved there, and i, too. where the world is as it is.. wonderful.
bestfriend, thank you. for teaching me how to live with pain and jealousy and not fix it or fade with it, to live with joy and happiness and not be ashamed to celebrate it. thank you because i love the world, my world, especially because you are in it.
i look forward to exploring the world with you :p Palawan tayo?
May 23, 2007 11:50PM
my lips sing with lyrics and metaphors of feelings so big and ready to burst. i see memories flying with the leaves, conniving with the wind to take them farther than my imagination could ever fathom. they will be preserved there, and i, too. where the world is as it is.. wonderful.
bestfriend, thank you. for teaching me how to live with pain and jealousy and not fix it or fade with it, to live with joy and happiness and not be ashamed to celebrate it. thank you because i love the world, my world, especially because you are in it.
i look forward to exploring the world with you :p Palawan tayo?
May 23, 2007 11:50PM
they come in 3's
because i was so bored and so sleepy at the client's and i am not in the mood for anything i decided to take this quiz.
three names you go by:
1. melyn (elementary and high school classmates and friends)
2. cathy (college name, but nagsimula sa PASSA convention sa Baguio nung highschool)
3. jick-jick (ah, mga pinsan, tito, tita, kahit sino sa family at mga kapit-bahay)
three screen names you have had:
1. lady elithyra (galing dun sa gothic novel)
2. melcath
3. anonymous :)
three physical things you like about yourself:
1. eyes (i have expressive eyes)
2. eyebrows
3. shoulder
three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. (full) hips
2. (fecund) hair
3. (oo na nga) my huge arms
three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. spanish (galing kay tatay, di obvoius ano?)
3. bading (wala na akong maisip eh, hehe)
three things that scare you:
1. blood, wound (i once fainted when casin jan fell off a ledge)
2. horror films
3. murder, suspense stories
three of your everyday essentials:
1. compact face powder
2. handkerchief (im lost without one)
3. evening bath/wash
three of your favorite musical artists:
1. rey valera
2. ric segreto
3. jose mari chan
im a sucker for OPM classics =)
three of your favorite songs:
1. top of the world – the carpenters
2. fallen – lauren wood
3. kung kailangan mo ako – rey valera
three things you want in a relationship:
1. heady feeling
2. that permanent dumb smile pasted in your face
3. Ls (laughter, love and lust)
three lies/truths in no particular order:
1. im brutal
2. i forgive and forget
3. im jealous when i say im not
three physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
1. coy smile
2. nails (like 'em trimmed and clean)
3. basta di ako masyadong mahilig sa pogi. :p
three of your favorite hobbies:
1. mag-stalk sa internet, hehe
2. bumming (sleep 10 hours straight, eat, watch tv, eat, sleep some more)
3. romancing a new book
three things you want to do really badly now:
1. take a loooooooong vacation
2. watch DVDs (ung tipong marathon)
3. be with my best friend and get mushy (hihihi, miss you best)
three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. college instructor/professor
2. lawyer activist
3. chef
three places you want to go on vacation:
1. paris
2. london
3. the beach (anywhere, basta beach)
three things you want to do before you die:
1. volunteer for UN
2. try sky diving
3. backpack in europe
three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i can be ready in 10 minutes (proven already, go ask jamie, hehe)
2. i "like" angelina jolie
3. i watch porn (latest ko napanood ung galing kay janice na galing raw sa staff nya)
three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. i get heady when kissed (newly discovered :p)
2. im ''maternal''
3. i love pink
three celeb crushes:
1. brad pitt
2. johnny depp
3. antonio banderas
three people i want to see take this quiz:
1. anyone who has not yet taken this one
2. anyone still thinking what to post next
3. anyone just plain bored
May 23, 2007 1:49PM
three names you go by:
1. melyn (elementary and high school classmates and friends)
2. cathy (college name, but nagsimula sa PASSA convention sa Baguio nung highschool)
3. jick-jick (ah, mga pinsan, tito, tita, kahit sino sa family at mga kapit-bahay)
three screen names you have had:
1. lady elithyra (galing dun sa gothic novel)
2. melcath
3. anonymous :)
three physical things you like about yourself:
1. eyes (i have expressive eyes)
2. eyebrows
3. shoulder
three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. (full) hips
2. (fecund) hair
3. (oo na nga) my huge arms
three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. spanish (galing kay tatay, di obvoius ano?)
3. bading (wala na akong maisip eh, hehe)
three things that scare you:
1. blood, wound (i once fainted when casin jan fell off a ledge)
2. horror films
3. murder, suspense stories
three of your everyday essentials:
1. compact face powder
2. handkerchief (im lost without one)
3. evening bath/wash
three of your favorite musical artists:
1. rey valera
2. ric segreto
3. jose mari chan
im a sucker for OPM classics =)
three of your favorite songs:
1. top of the world – the carpenters
2. fallen – lauren wood
3. kung kailangan mo ako – rey valera
three things you want in a relationship:
1. heady feeling
2. that permanent dumb smile pasted in your face
3. Ls (laughter, love and lust)
three lies/truths in no particular order:
1. im brutal
2. i forgive and forget
3. im jealous when i say im not
three physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
1. coy smile
2. nails (like 'em trimmed and clean)
3. basta di ako masyadong mahilig sa pogi. :p
three of your favorite hobbies:
1. mag-stalk sa internet, hehe
2. bumming (sleep 10 hours straight, eat, watch tv, eat, sleep some more)
3. romancing a new book
three things you want to do really badly now:
1. take a loooooooong vacation
2. watch DVDs (ung tipong marathon)
3. be with my best friend and get mushy (hihihi, miss you best)
three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. college instructor/professor
2. lawyer activist
3. chef
three places you want to go on vacation:
1. paris
2. london
3. the beach (anywhere, basta beach)
three things you want to do before you die:
1. volunteer for UN
2. try sky diving
3. backpack in europe
three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i can be ready in 10 minutes (proven already, go ask jamie, hehe)
2. i "like" angelina jolie
3. i watch porn (latest ko napanood ung galing kay janice na galing raw sa staff nya)
three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. i get heady when kissed (newly discovered :p)
2. im ''maternal''
3. i love pink
three celeb crushes:
1. brad pitt
2. johnny depp
3. antonio banderas
three people i want to see take this quiz:
1. anyone who has not yet taken this one
2. anyone still thinking what to post next
3. anyone just plain bored
May 23, 2007 1:49PM
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